It’s been hours since I drove you away. I’ve been praying that this E & J can replace you. I realized, 1 ½ pint later, it can’t. The air’s sour and thin as I’m vegetating, starring at a 2 am infomercial. I can hear the cracking and cricking hoping it was my phone on vibrate. [...]
Heaven Can Wait
I really don’t care. I’m not going to heaven if my angel’s here. I know Heaven’s the reason I’ve been a good Christian. But what’s the point in being in a mansion You made when the woman You gave me as a soul mate isn’t there to make it a home? God, please don’t do [...]
I Screwed Up–Story 2
New to the story? Please start here from Story 1 Click here for the Story 3 I took a few steps away from Redhead, who was standing behind me trying to hear the conversation. My wife, Bev, screamed over the phone, “Where the hell are you?” “I’m not sure. All I know is me and [...]
Dead Wrong Part 2
Dead Wrong Part 2 Which is more important, dignity or money? Yeah, everyone says dignity, but what if bills are due in three days? I admit, sometimes, something will happen that will make me forget I got bills to pay. So when do you shallow your pride? Hmm— So Richard pulled me upstairs into Donald’s [...]
Purple Rain
That’s what friends are for right?
To be there each other
not to take you from your spouse,
family, or other friends, but
pick the other up.
Like I always do.
I don’t understand why you didn’t see that.
Invisible Distraction
Haunting in a cloak of invisibility,
it taunts loudly, blocking every thought.
No one else can hear it.
Prayer, happy memories, and projects
only remind me of the distractions
Nicholas Jeff: Dead Wrong Part 1
Don’t you hate it when you’re 100% correct, but because you have no power in the situation, you’re 100% wrong? I mean, it’s so funny that the concept of right and wrong is more about what the boss man wants or doesn’t want.
Cellphone
Its too early to think bout this
but I cant help to wonder
when will I wish you was still here.
My cousin, my brother said not
to think about this, but damn
look what you did for me–
you was my dad until
Nicholas Jeff: Dust Off Your Shoulder
A wise man once told me that everything can be offensive. I always thought that was an exaggeration, until today.I came to work happy that my cousin is going to sell me a new laptop for $300, and my lady friend, whom I have been spending time with, decided to take our relationship to the [...]
I Screwed Up–Story 1
My wife is going to kill me, again. By the way, my name is Leo Carroll. I woke up today in the back of large van that smelled like Patron, BO, and vomit next to two nude, sleeping white fat chicks. So my hairy, slim, caramel ass opened the back doors, and stumbled out the [...]
What Kinda Man Would I Be…
What kinda man would I be if I slept around just because she wouldn’t I was tired of her and I was looking for something better. I mean, every relationship has storm, bumps, and bruises and the grass is always greener, at least it looks greener. and if she did that to me, I’d see [...]
Nirvana
Alone on a still boat, it’s one and a half bottles of Merlot and 3 CD’s later, the blue sky looks like autumn leaves. Ballerina dolphins dance to Distant Lover on the sunset-laced water that’s securing and alienating me from routine and opinions that takes me from me while added instrumentals to Voyage to Atlantis [...]
Careless Whispers
Gifts, favors, pleading
could never undo
the errors of the tongue.
Truth only hurts everyone.
Nicholas Jeff: The Dishwashed Cigarettes
I understand that sometimes a smoker have to smoke, even if it’s on the clock. But does he have to smoke every fifteen minutes–in total disregard of lunch rushes and the “team concept”? And someone please tell me how many smoke breaks do you have to take just to get by? Let me just tell you this story.


